So here we are, 5 months to the day since you’ve been gone and as if that wasn’t hard enough we have to go through Christmas without you!
This was one Christmas that I was looking forward to spending with my father. This Christmas marked a milestone for our family as it was the 1st Christmas for our little man Marcus. More than anything I wanted my Papa to be here for this. I’m so used to walking through the front door of my parents house at Christmas to be greeted by him with a huge smile on his face and arms open wide, but that didn’t happen. Never did I imagine that I would be spending it by visiting him at the cemetery. This however is my reality and what my Christmas’ to come will now consist of.
I know what they say Papa, that you are here with us in spirit but I guess I’m still having a hard time with that. I miss you, plain and simple! You loved Christmas so much! Your Christmas tree with the flashing lights playing Christmas music over and over again, the nativity scene that you would spend countless hours working on, the Elvis Christmas album playing in the background, dressing up like Santa for the little ones and of course you singing “Tu Scendi Dalle Stelle” to the kids every chance you would get. I miss all of that sooooooo much, I miss you sooooooo much!
Sadly, you’re no longer here with us but I want to do good by you and make you proud. I want to pick up where you left off and carry on doing the things you loved so much. I want to do this not only for you but also for myself and more importantly for the kids. I want them to never forget these things that made their Nonno so happy during the holidays.
This is for you Papa! I hope that it puts a smile on your face as you celebrate your 1st Christmas up in heaven.
Buon Natale Papa, ti voglio bene xoxo